Within six months of moving to London I knew I would be gearing up for a career change in the following years. Sales was the only career I had known but something just didn't feel right about it anymore. Let me put this out there. Sales can be a wonderful career. I am so thankful for all the amazing people that I have met doing this work and for the lessons I learned. Many doors opened for me doing sales. But truth be told I dreaded going to work every day and even when I wasn't there I was worried about what would happen the next time I was in the office. What made it tough was the fact that I was good at sales and had absolutely no idea what else I could do but the stress I was feeling on a daily basis was undeniable.
In the past I had enjoyed a strong spiritual connection and meditation and prayer had been part of my life. Now I had become so tired and beat down that it had slipped away. Here I was in London. It had been my dream for so long and I had worked so hard to get here yet I was too tired and stressed out to enjoy it. I knew something had to change. Thankfully one of my dear friends from home sent me some inspirational books in a care package and that was a great reminder that it was time to reconnect with my spiritual roots.
A combination of prayer and soul searching starting bringing me clues of the right path to take. At a point where anxiety was at an all time high with my work situation I came into contact with Sue Frederick who is an amazing Career Intuitive. Check out her blog/website if you are interested in learning more about what she does: http://careerintuitive.org/blog/ I had no idea what was in store for me during the session. Was she was going to tell me I needed to suck it up and find a way to love sales again since I was lucky enough to have been successful at it? This was furthest from the truth. She shared with me that my natural skills are actually in the coaching and healing realm. What she said resonated with me on a deep level. It was like someone turned on a faucet and tears flowed from me. What she said felt right but I had never imagined myself in that type of work. All at the same time I felt grateful, excited, overwhelmed and scared. Thankfully she recommended that I take baby steps and gave me ideas of how to begin because I had no idea how to start this journey.
That session with her shifted me in a profound way. Finally I felt a sense of greater purpose. Things at work were still stressful but I had something worthwhile to work towards. Knowing this allowed me to relax and enjoy where I was. As I began soaking in the culture and settling into living the life of a Londoner, I began taking the necessary courses to become certified. The first thing I did was get certified as a life coach. It was a great place to start and gave me a good foundation to work from.
Soon after I completed this course I found out that Sue Frederick was going to be holding courses to train others to do the work that she does. Because the session I had with her made such an impact on my life I wanted to learn what she had to teach. I knew there had to be others out there in the same situation I had been in, wanting to make a change in career but not having an idea of what that would be and it would be nice to know how to help them.
As I began doing sessions for people it became clear that although many of them connected with the information we discussed about their natural gifts and the career possibilities that would allow them to use these gifts they still felt stuck. Knowing about their potential even when it felt right and knowing steps to get started on this path wasn't enough for some. Old beliefs came up about why it was fine for someone else to follow his or her path but they had a list of reasons why they couldn't do it themselves. I felt it was something more than them just making excuses because some of these people truly wanted change in their lives. In a way I could understand. Although I was taking the steps to make a career change, part of me still didn't feel it was possible. Even though Sue assured me that I had the skills and was ready to start coaching full time something was holding me back. As much as I was "done" with the corporate world I was scared to leave it and I didn't know why.
I decided to follow my intuition and learn Reiki. Energy work was something I had experienced before and I knew the value of it but never saw myself learning it. However Reiki became an important piece to the puzzle. It was the first step in branching out from just coaching into also doing healing work. As I learned Reiki and received my first attunement it seemed to deepen my connection to God. As this happened my intuition geared up to a whole new level and by the time I learned the second level of Reiki I felt strongly that it would be important for me to also learn Theta Healing. The thing about this was I knew little about Theta Healing and had never even had a session. But the push was so strong it compelled me to go online and research it. As things seem to happen when they are divinely guided there happened to be a course that month not too far from my flat.
Theta Healing opened up a whole new world for me. It was a link that allowed me to combine what I had learned through coaching with the energy aspect of Reiki. A large part of Theta Healing is working with beliefs, both conscious and subconscious. This gave me better understanding as to why some people stayed stuck even when they wanted to change. I learned how to connect to the Theta brainwave, how quickly healing can occur there, and that it is possible to shift beliefs even if we're not aware we've had them or if we've been holding on to them for years.
It was amazing to see how this helped the people I worked with and as I worked on healing myself things in my life started shifting too. The job that I had been afraid to leave suddenly didn't feel right even as a way to pay my bills as I was slowly building my practice. I still wasn't quite ready to completely leave the corporate world and right on time another job showed up. Around the same time I met a man and fell deeply in love and for several months things were great.
He ended up changing my life, just not in the way I had expected. One night he told me he loved me like he had done for the past few months and then the next day out of no where broke things off. I felt blind sided. It wasn't the kind of break up where you say ok, good riddance, next. Both my heart and soul felt broken. There were days that I felt so sad I didn't want to get out of bed. And I was so confused. Why had this happened? I was doing the spiritual work, I had cleared beliefs around relationships. Or so I thought. Deep inside of me beliefs I held about abandonment still lingered and he reflected this to me. I still had deep seated beliefs about abandonment and he reflected this to me. I allowed myself time to grieve and heal. Even though I was still in pain I decided that instead of my broken heart being a roadblock and a reason to set me back or keep me stuck I wanted to turn it into something positive and see the gift in it even it it wasn't obvious at the time. I dug deeper into my spiritual work and into my studies of the mind, body, spirit connection. The vacation time he and I would have spent together I used to take a 3 week intensive course called Intuitive Anatomy which covers each body system and how our emotions and beliefs are stored in each system affecting our physical body.
The "gift" from the heartbreak was beginning the emerge. The course was amazing. For many years I've been aware of the work of Louise Hay and the many other authors and medical experts that speak of the mind body connection and how our thoughts and emotions affected our body. A new level of awareness dawned on me as I learned how to apply this in a practical way for my clients as well as allowing myself to heal further. Just as in my experience with Reiki I could feel my intuition kick up another notch. Sessions with clients became even easier. I was able to quickly tune in and help them uncover unconscious beliefs that they had no idea were holding them back. Now I was also able to tune into body parts that were causing my clients pain and help them release emotions they were holding on to that had been causing the pain.
On a personal level things were changing for me too. When I first moved to London I had planned to get my citizenship and stay there for good. The healing that occurred for me during Intuitive Anatomy shifted something in me and I started feeling as if it was time to move back home after living there for four years. I can be very stubborn and in the past I would have dug my heals in and fought it. After a bit of a rocky start I was finally feeling at home in London.Why should I move now? I'd met some great people and was loving this new work I was doing even if it was part time. What was this guiding me to move home? I knew there was still a bit of unresolved pain from the break up but this felt much deeper than that. My intuition had been right about learning Reiki and Theta Healing so after taking a few months to decide if it was really what I wanted to do I decided to move back to Austin.
When I first got back to Austin in December I was still in the mindset that I needed to have a corporate job. Largely from habit and because living in London this would have been true for at least a couple of more years due to visa requirements.
Once I really started to get settled back in Austin I started toying with the idea of building my practice full time. It was really all I wanted to do because I believe in this work and know what a difference it can make in peoples lives including my own. My life has shifted in dramatic ways since I've begun this new path. Not just in where I live and my career but in how things affect me. It is much easier for me to hold a space of peace when faced with things that would have really bothered me before. So, I held the intention and prayed for the right doors open up for me. And then when I least expected it certain things felt into place allowing me to do this full time.
Oh and the tarantula? Thankfully he left about 10 minutes after I saw him, however the toilet downstairs is still having an issue since the lake levels have been fluctuating. Let me know if you happen to know of a good plumber in the Lake Travis area. :-)